Saturday, November 1, 2008

Bad Mom Award

Talk about convicting! I lost my patience in these past 30 hours more times than I care to acknowledge. Then I got on-line and read about moms who have recently lost their children to horrible illnesses- 1 to CDH and another to cancer. Of course, now I have tremendous guilt and wish I could have handled situations differently today. I’m sure each of those moms would give anything to have their kids back, and here I am thankful it’s bed time because the house is peaceful and I am able to sit for a minute without having to go break up an argument (or worse) between the kids. As much as I love my children, some days I think I’m going to go insane. Mothering is by far the most difficult task I have ever done. I guess the good thing about TJ going away is that I appreciate him more now. I never realized how much I need those breaks that he offers me by coming home for lunch and helping me with bedtime. Having to do it myself, I learned I could never be a single mom, or at least not a happy single mom!

I have been trying to replace my lack of patience with patience. I took time to write on my blackboard Isaiah 41:10b.

Also, I am officially sick. My throat is hurting and my sinus’ are draining. I only hope Teagan doesn’t catch it. T.G. and Ta are miserable, although Ta continues to act like himself. It’s funny how illness doesn’t seem to affect his energy level- he must be related to the Energizer Bunny (he just keeps going and going and going!) I, on the other hand, am ready for bed. I am trying my best to stay awake until TJ comes home, so hopefully it won’t be too late. If not, I guess he can wake me on the couch. . .

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