Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Struggles. . .

I am struggling right now. Since school has ended and I have been home full-time with my kids, I am having difficulty balancing my duties as a wife and mother. I have trouble finding time to do my daily chores (i.e. dishes, picking up, straightening up, vacuuming, etc). let alone my weekly ones (laundry, cleaning). I just don’t know when I’m supposed to do those things. Lunch and dinner are even more chaotic because they require my full attention. I try my best to plan and prepare meals in advance, but unless it’s a casserole, I have to spend some time in front of the stove. I try to do my chores during the day, but whenever I leave the room my kids argue or get into stuff they’re not supposed to. If I put off my chores until the kids take a nap, I am usually too tired and only get a few things accomplished. I’ve been staying up late in the evenings to try and finish some stuff, but at the end of the day I’m utterly exhausted and don’t have the energy to scrub bathrooms, fold laundry, or dust furniture. I just don’t know what to do. I’ve tried having the kids help, I’ve tried just doing a few things each day, but nothing seems to be working. It’s really depressing and overwhelming to me to see my house in this condition. Every where I look there is something that needs to be done- I just don’t know where to start or how to do it while the kids are awake. I often resort to sinful behaviors (i.e. losing my patience & yelling) in order to get just one thing accomplished before TJ gets home so he doesn’t think I did nothing all day. If he only knew how hard I try! On top of everything I have to do here at the house, I also have a responsibility at the preschool. I am painting my classroom this week, and next week I have to help paint the hallways. There just aren’t enough hours in a day! The point of this post: I need prayer. I need it more than you’ll ever know. Please, please pray for me as I struggle to rely on God’s promises and the truth of His word. 1 Cor. 10:13.